I need some TLC I just need someone to cheer me up or something?

Honestly I'm not even sure anymore whether I'm a good or bad person. I think I'm a good person and people generally say I'm a nice person but when it comes to my family all I get are negative comments. Since I was little they'd always pick on me or say mean things and even now I'm seen as the bad child or the child that's troublesome and whenever I hear my parents say something like that they don't trust me or say mean things like calling me stupid and dumb in my mind I just think what kind of a parent tells that to their child? It's had a huge emotional toll on me and now it's just like am I really a bad person as they say? I remember when I was little and we'd all have fun together and I miss those days. My dad is the one that this whole emotional thing revolves around mainly because he's the one that tells me all these mean things and it's just heartbreaking because I used to love him so much when I was a kid and It makes me feel like I really am a bad person and that I deserve all this, and not once have I heard him say sorry. It's been who knows how long since I've heard a family member of mine say they love me, not even an I love you as a way of saying bye like if they were to drop me off at school. I just I'm lost and feel worthless and unwanted in my family.