A break ; what she wrote to me.?

I don't mean to hurt you or make you cry. That's the last thing I want. Please don't hurt for me, I am nothing, just a girl. Don't let me break your heart. I still love you and always will, you are my first love. I don't know what to say or do, I need you, deep inside I really do but then again my heart keeps telling me to rethink you and me. I don't know what to do anymore. It's hard to imagine my life without you and I get the urge every night to call you up just so we can fall asleep on eachother again. I never meant to hurt you like this or put you through this pain. While we're on our break, you don't have any obligations to me, so do whatever you want to. I feel like if I stay I hurt myself and if I go I hurt you. You're my best friend. The one sole person I can turn to with all my problems. You were there for me during my darkest hours and I always imagined that one day I could repay that for you. If you ever need to talk, we can talk. I'm not saying this is the end, I'm saying that this break could be a long time. We aren't putting our relationship on hold, this is a break...and that means we have no more obligations to eachother. I am not doing this because I'm pursuing other guys, I'm doing this because honestly I have lost interest in you, a little bit. I need time to think about myself. I have gone through a big life change and I feel like all of my anger and resentment towards my mothers death is targeted at you. I don't want to say things or do things that will hurt you. I need this time to re-focus and really think about what I need. And like I said, remember, even if we're not forever, theres millions of other girls out there for you. If I'm not the one, then the one is out there for you. Don't cry over me, I'm just a girl and remember no girl is worth your tears. Please don't take this personally. I need you, I really do but maybe I need you too much and this is my time to rely on no one other than myself. I never meant to do this, in fact I never thought we'd make it this far and never thought love could ever be this hard. So don't cry over me, and don't worry, I wont leave you hanging, once I've made up my mind, I'll tell you my decision. Maybe you might even forget about me. So for now, its talk to you whenever. I love you. Please don't cry because I honestly haven't had the urge to cry over you for awhile now. I love you, I love you, forever and ever baby. Bye...